Lockdown Thoughts … โœ๐Ÿป

Bareilly ( UP , India )

LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE!

( covid-19)

We are so sure about everything , we are moving towards the fifth generation and onwards, but sadly one thing we forget and that is – “WE CAN NOT WIN THE WAR AGAINST THE NATURE.”

*This year 2021 is worse than 2020 and yet the human don’t understand what it means.*

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๐Ÿ˜ท STAY SAFE ๐Ÿ˜ท

The emptiness and darkness growing day by day , the people die daily and suffer with the illness whose antidote is still not developed and they are talking about how to fly high without knowing the fact that to fly high one must be alive.

โ˜ฎ๏ธ TOGETHER WE CAN โ˜ฎ๏ธ

Alas! The mind is big no doubt, it evolves but the imagination is still lacking somewhere and this pandemic shows (COVID-19) that we are just like a tiny atoms connected with each other to form a big molecule and yet we fail to maintain the ecological balance and now the only thing which is in our hand is to pray, and isn’t is terrible ?

๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป SELF CARE IS IMPORTANT ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

Isn’t it bother you that being full of all powerful weapon, medicine, new technologies still you fail to save your own people ?! Isn’t it sufficient to see and to understand the value of time, to tell you that we are nothing in front of this nature, the nature laws and the whole universe.

๐ŸŒ€ Look and Think ๐ŸŒ€

Yes, it is late and if still you are not accepting this truth of the universe – you are going to be vanish soon.

The universe is bigger than you thoughts and imagination, it is a big jigsaw puzzle and you know just a 1% of it and if your selfishness is to challenge it and change all the laws of it , then it is just the beginning of the end…

A UNIVERSE IS THE GREATEST GIFT!

You have to understand this.

The way one lose it control in mankind, The way deforestation take place, The way we lose faith in humans, The way we experiment over the laws of nature, The way we prefer monetary over humans, The way people ( my own surrounding ) die without oxygen and constantly running for the medical care, I am in grief after seeing the pain of the world, I don’t have any words and I know that it it our fault and we are responsible for this, although the ground reality hits hard and it is also the truth that nobody would understand their duty as well :- The government we choose for our wellfare will fail to protect us, the way they show selfishness is terrible and we as the countrymen have nothing to say, also the people who don’t understand what their duty as a citizen is also responsible for this havoc, So no one is left whom should be this mother earth pardon itself , and the oxygen which is still left will shouted and telling you that please SAVE ME AND SAVE YOURSELF AND IF NOT THEN ~ THE END IS NEAR! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป


๐Ÿ’ซ I pray that we all overcome very soon and will understand our duty as well. ๐Ÿ’ซ


๐Ÿ’Ÿ DO NOT BREAK THE CHAIN OF LOVE ๐Ÿ’Ÿ

๐ŸŒ‘ With more compassion, love, respect and care we shall overcome very soon! ๐ŸŒ•

โ™ฅ๏ธโš›๏ธ๐Ÿ›๐Ÿ•‰๏ธโ˜ธ๏ธโ˜ฎ๏ธโ˜ฏ๏ธโ˜ช๏ธโœ๏ธโœก๏ธ๐Ÿ•Žโ™ฅ๏ธ

KEEP THE HUMANITY ALIVE

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๐“ฃ๐“ฑ๐“ธ๐“พ๐“ผ๐“ช๐“ท๐“ญ ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“ช๐“ผ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ผ ๐”€๐“ฑ๐”‚ ๐“˜ ๐“ต๐“ธ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ ๐“ฏ๐“ฒ๐“ฌ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท ๐“ธ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ๐“ป ๐“ท๐“ธ๐“ท – ๐“ฏ๐“ฒ๐“ฌ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท … โœ

One thing I am always sure is about

Lโคve…

Love is not about perfection but it is about to make things perfect.

The year 2020 is worse but the books I choose to read in this pandemic is what made my life awesome…

One year four books ( Except from the regular syllabus book) not enough but quiet worthy to read.

The Notebook

Hippie

You and Me

Sunset by the river

All are having different style and theme but worthy to read.

๐Ÿ’Ÿ Love above all ๐Ÿ’Ÿ

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I am here describing my real over reel for the current book which I read ๐Ÿ“– and one thing is that this book is very close to me apart from the negativity I felt personally because some things are pretty and ugly at the same time but I do write only for me and for my love!

At the starting of the days when the book is in writing phase, I have all the faith on writer’s writing magic, May be some other also have but for me it is a kind of first precious thing and I have all believes that this book is going to be of the best-seller and here it is ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿป

The bond of “LOVE”,

The bond of “FRIENDSHIP”,

The most important issue mention in the book “MENTAL HEALTH”

โœจ All describing like very beautifully in the book. โœจ

โค๏ธ

I am not going to open up all the woah’s for you, instead of this I just write my own version of the Review – & I request all my WordPress community people to give it a read because I know it will never leave you despair in between or at the end. ๐Ÿ˜Š


Chapter One and Two defines major goals of friendship ๐Ÿ‘ฅ I wish everyone have a friend in his life whom one can share their deep dark secrets without hesitation…

Just like Ayaan ( Character in the book ) have one of the guy ( friend ) with him – who trust, support and understand his friend’s worries and instead of giving wrong advice – his friend’s support him.


๐ŸŒ… Favourite Line from the novel – You can share your deepest, darkest concerns with such a friend and feel like you’ve outgrown those fears that had been suffocating you from the inside ~ Pg. 20


Chapter Three although personally I don’t like this chapter because it reminds me of someone who is just terrible and all the details well I don’t want to elaborate but somehow connected and I don’t want to write it down…

Move on to the positive one personally I love the character Tripti apart and except from her first presence in blue and red because it again remind me someone whom I hate.

LOL ๐Ÿ™‚ it’s writer choice of selection and I can’t do much!

Chapter Three is beautiful in its own way as ayaan finally meets his love for the first time and I just love to read about the love stories starting – like how it all starts. ๐Ÿค—

First impression is the last impression and in this novel – Love is define in the exact way the person or reader wants, Once the person becomes sober to your eyes you can’t turn back except for the fact that one can throw you from his/her life after using.

My Own Thoughts
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Chapter Four & Five describes the love at first sight like very beautifully , READ AND KNOW MORE ๐Ÿ˜‰

The way Ayaan have a strong feeling for his love, the way he dream, ( Those cheesy lines are cute, read and know more ๐Ÿคช) decided to made her life partner, and most importantly the way he shows respect to his family like he literally want Tripti like forever, asking and giving positive affirmation to the family for her well being, Aaah! O my god!

๐Ÿฅฐ Ayaan is the Man, Somehow many women literally wants … ๐Ÿฅฐ

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The emotions you have after meeting your first love is like out of this world, I must tell you like I swear โ˜บ๏ธ when you really meet someone and having a feeling that you find your soulmate is beyond awesomely awesome. โ˜บ๏ธ

My Own Thoughts

๐ŸŒ… Favourite line from the novel : If you have a strong belief for something, it will happen sooner or later ~ Pg. 42


Chapter Six to Ten are simple yet written in a very creative way the bonding between friendship, love and the main plot of the story , those deep dark secrets all are just placed well. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Love can make you a better or a bitter person. So, the choice is yours that how you paved the flower of love in your garden ๐Ÿ’•

My Own Thoughts

Chapter Eleven to Seventeen the main theme of the story is here, That time in a relationship when all seems like “The End.” Chapters included a most important topic which is “MENTAL ILLNESS” and its not so good in both reel and in reality.

“Sadly people still don’t know what exactly mental illness means”

The Truth…

Just as a reader and a bearer of anxiety and depression, I can understand the characters ( and individual person) feeling at all.

It is very easy to criticize people, leave people in between the walk of life because you can’t understand them or you think that they are mad, ill, passes negativity and much more.

Writing a word, sentence, paragraph, quotes, blogs, books doesn’t mean anything if you judge person from your own perspective.

If you love someone you will never want to be the reason of someone’s anxiety or illness, and if your partner have any problems then ignoring them, making them feel like garbage, make them feel like others are much better and lovable than them, Well you make them alone and ill.


๐ŸŒ… Favourite line from the novel : Spirituality involves the belief in a divine energy which empowers your soul; whereas believing in it blindly for miracles and expecting things to just happen, to fall into place magically, that is superstition ~ Pg. 190


Instead of this behaviour one should try to understand them, console them because this world is vast no doubt but if you make this world happier without making your own people happy, you gain nothing or you do injustice at all, and sometimes in love or I can say when you truly love the person you support them no matter what or how hard the things is but you always be their side just for their happiness!

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Well, apart from my theory of everything , back to this novel -) I am just glad to read this novel and happy to see a strong character like Ayaan who is portrait like so very well.

The way the character support his love throughout the story , yes some glitches in between but still the character understand the value of both love and friendship and do not mix the things up.

He understand what true love is and what friendship is all about. In the whole story you are amazed that he never give up on his love like for no one and not at any cost.

Well it is all about this fantastic novel by
๐Ÿ’Ÿ Author Sameer ๐Ÿ’Ÿ and I am happy that this one is super hit ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป also I am sure that๐Ÿคž๐Ÿป many more will definitely release in future by the author! ๐Ÿ“š

โœจ I wish you all read it once โœจ

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Some of my questions are still searching for answers ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป


* What if you love someone whose mental health is not okay, what you do then?!

* What if you do not understand his/her point of view and don’t know what exactly they wants, what you do then ?!

* People still think that mental illness a kind of taboo and without knowing the person they consider them mad, what you do then ?!


All the things which this world need to know about mental illness are still left to learn but some quite disturbing facts are also written in this novel in a manner that you can’t just imagine! READ AND KNOW MORE ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿป

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To be cont…

PS :- I am trying to write a story, Hope I will complete it within time and give you something a kind of good read!

Keep Smiling & Spread Awareness! โœŒ๐Ÿป #togetherwecan

Men also get depressed.

Everyone goes through different types of emotions at different times and for different reasons. Men, like women, go through emotional wreck that may lead to depression. Women are likely to attempt suicide and on the other hand, men are more likely to die by suicide. Depression is a period of emotional unhappiness or low morale [โ€ฆ]

Men also get depressed.

HALO … ๐ŸŒž ๐Ÿ’ซ ๐ŸŒˆ

Bareilly, U. P

Date : 06/08/2020

Time : 11:25 (approx)

Today was the another amazing day for the people who love the universe ๐ŸŒŒ possibilities, facts and secrets โœจ

I am literally amazed after looking the pics of today which my brother share on social media, though I missed the phenomenon but all my hearts ๐Ÿ’ž to the picture I saw. ๐Ÿฅบ

Halo ๐ŸŒ

This image ๐Ÿ–ผ he capture live today at 11:30 a.m at Bareilly, U. P ( India ) and I am just totally amazed that he captured it so beautifully and instant ๐Ÿคž luckily.

Normally these rings ๐Ÿ’ซ occur only for a few second and if you capute those seconds in the camera, then ๐Ÿ™Œ hats off to my bro ๐Ÿ˜‡

Rainbow ๐ŸŒˆ ring ๐Ÿ’ around the Sun ๐ŸŒ

Basically Halo is the name for a family of optical phenomena produced by light (typically from the Sun or Moon) interacting with ice crystals suspended in the atmosphere. #wikipedia

Halos can have many forms, ranging from colored or white rings to arcs and spots in the sky. โ˜

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Source :- Goggle.

Meteorologists say halos are fairly common and can even occur at night-time, with a halo appearing around the moon.

The phenomenon happens when cloud is very high in the sky and creates ice-crystals, which reflect the sunlight – or moon-light- and create a white halo, says the Met Office.

Plus, if the sunlight hits the ice-crystals at a particular angle, some light can be refracted causing “faint colouration” and a noticeable rainbow ๐ŸŒˆ


“Halos happen when we have cloud really high up in the atmosphere – it’s ice crystals and the sun is reflected on them,” said a spokesperson for the Met Office.

I am just lucky ๐Ÿ˜‡ that he captured the one for me to show as because he knows that I love universe ๐ŸŒŒ related facts…

This year is so devastating but also a bag full of surprises, In the previous months or in a shitty lock down ๐Ÿ”’ time, My city got so many one time in a lifetime kind of surprise – seen above in the sky.

Also on 21/06/2020 I just captured the whole solar eclipse ๐ŸŒ‘ in my phone and that day was damn awesome ๐Ÿ˜‡

Many people warn me to not watch ๐Ÿ‘€ it as it have a negative effects on life, but I dare to watch and I am just blessed ๐Ÿ˜Š

Say no to pollution โœ–

Save Earth ๐ŸŒŽ

Save the planet ๐ŸŒ

The ๐ŸŒŒ universe holds a lot of secrets and instead of wasting time in war and negatives,

๐Ÿ•‰ EMBRACE THE PLANET ๐Ÿ•‰ and it will definitely shows the magic โœก to you.

~ STARGAZING ๐ŸŒŸโœจโญ

Planet Earth ๐ŸŒ … โœ๏ธ

“The World is changed by your example, not by your opinion.”
-Paulo Coelho

ยฉBallu

Writers have bonded their heart with nature & will always find it loving and will describe the beauty of nature as in an unconditionally creative way.

On World Environment Day 2020, let us be reminded to thank Earth for it’s priceless treasures and vow to protect and preserve it.


As a good man once said:

“Nature may be harsh in its honesty, but it never lies to you.”


The 2020 is worse year for whole planet but strange thing is – yet we do not understand the importance of Environment…

Cruelty like that โ˜น๏ธ It is heart broken.

Humans are always trying to play a role of god, always trying to defy nature’s laws, always acting as if humans are better than everything else on earth and lol to those fickle poor minded people that there such stupid behaviour lead the death of all of us. 

But I will not mourn humans.

I will mourn the animals.

I will mourn the trees.

ยฉSam

I will mourn the flowers.

Nature is benevolent. After all the nonsense we did to it ๐Ÿ’ It still rains, the cool breezes still blow, flowers still blossom and it always forgives.

Take me to a place where there’s nature.

๐ŸŒ Lessons from natural elements ๐ŸŒ

Fallen fruits sow seeds into the earth, withered flowers give life to new buds, leaves that have shed are replaced by new ones, and broken branches grew something new.

ยฉKomal

๐ŸŒธ Everything in Nature teaches us one simple lesson, the lesson of life’s which thirst for itself, and the million ways in which it resurrects itself. ๐ŸŒธ

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๐ŸŒต If such be the course of Nature, why do we worry at the thought of failure, loss and death? Every failure will eventually pave the path to success, every loss will be replaced by a greater gain, and death has to be overpowered by eternal life. ๐ŸŒต

Perhaps, it is high time and we already are in trouble. This devastating year is doing a lot and we are not sure what it holds further. So its our duty to save our planet.

Well everything happens for a reason, and the reasons are always worth the pain and trouble.

๐ŸŒฑ So before we bother about making our skins fairer, our waists slimmer, our house bigger or our bank balances fatter, perhaps we should focus more on keeping the earth safer ๐ŸŒฑ

๐ŸŒ This is the only world we have ๐ŸŒ

๐Ÿ’ซ This is our only life ๐Ÿ’ซ

&

๐Ÿก This is our only home ๐Ÿก

We better realise this, before our mighty minds and floating egos together destroy what created us in the first place.

Nature.Earth.Life

๐ŸŒŠ Remember, what God gives, it can take back too! ๐ŸŒ€

#WorldEnvironmentDay #June5th #GOGREEN

Soulmate … โœ๏ธ

When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. The presence that is felt through a hand held ๐Ÿ‘ a voice heard ๐Ÿ‘ฅ or a smile seenโ˜บ๏ธ

Souls do not have calendars ๐Ÿ“† or clocks ๐Ÿ•ฆ nor do they understand the notion of time or distance ๐Ÿ’ญ They only know it feels right to be one another.

The soul is like a star glowing in the night ๐ŸŒŒ Sometimes it seems so distant, sometimes it’s as though you can touch it. The Moments when it burns so bright โ˜€๏ธ so hot ๐Ÿ”ฅ it’s as though it will consume you. Moments when it seems as though it will fade and flicker out.

โ™ฅ The soul needs fed in many a way. It can at times need soothed. No two are exactly the same. Each has its precious place โ™ฅ๏ธ

but it is not easy to find a true soulmate, you have to face a lot for finding the compatible mate, because spending a whole life with an unknown person is a very difficult task ๐Ÿ˜ฐ

๐ŸŒœ In this era of social media, one easily having a crush on anyone but soon it is seen that it is not what one’s wants, some do love just for lust some for time pass and some for status and in all these the vibes are all clear, because either you or the person who use you truly knows the agenda behind love and frankly I know the feels ๐ŸŒ›

but this all seems not true in case of true love, because true love is far away from these games and agendas.

๐Ÿ’š When you find it, you truly knows its worth either a person is not rich or good looking or may be a famous one or a one with nothing or a lot more than you but all those things can’t define the true definition of love ๐Ÿ’š

Well the question is who actually do you think is our soul mate ??? ๐Ÿ’

โ™ฅ For me it is not someone who would complete me.
โ™ฅ For me it is someone who would push me to give my best.
โ™ฅ For me it is someone who brings out good in me even when all I see is darkness.
โ™ฅ For me it is someone who will be garment of my soul.
โ™ฅ For me it is someone who will guide me through this temporary life.
โ™ฅ For me it is someone with whom I won’t regret spending time.
โ™ฅ For me it is someone with whom an eternity feels less.
โ™ฅ Someone with whom uniting in this world and sitting beside would be beautiful.
โ™ฅ Someone with whom falling over and over again till eternity would still feel less.

P.S :- โ˜˜ SOULMATES ARE MAGIC โ˜˜

๐Ÿ’ซ Once you find it, Once you know is that they are born for you, there is no particular time, year, week and days, โ€ฆ they just come into your life anytime and everything changed ๐Ÿ’ซ

Sometimes people in your life says a lot to you, asking many questions, setting many boundaries, asking you to define your love in front of them, telling you that you don’t deserve them, telling you that you are lucky to have such a beautiful one and always try to ask the same question all over –

Why you choose them ?

& this question hit you back because true love can’t be explain in words.

May be some connections are more than the people and you don’t need to give clarification to anyone because the connection itself is the answer.

There are so many people are here to criticize you with their actions and words but true things are above all.

๐Ÿ’œ Eventually the soulmates meet, for they have the same hiding place. ๐Ÿ’œ

๐Ÿ’™ “There’s an old tale that says soulmates’  mind’s are connected from birth. When you can’t sleep, your soulmate can’t sleep either. So next time you are laying awake, know that someone, somewhere is laying awake too.” ๐Ÿ’™

๐Ÿ’› Intertwined well beyond time,existing on a plane of own. ๐Ÿ’›

P.S :- โ˜˜ FEEL THE MAGIC โ˜˜

Note :- Complete the novel of the month which is soon going to be published โ™ฅ and this article is just something based on that reading and realization. I hope the novel hopefully hit the store โ™ฅ and I will let you know and expecting that you love this article and book thou ๐Ÿ™‚

โ™ฅ S***** b* t** r**** โ™ฅ

STAY SAFE (COVID – 19)… โœ

Hello, World

It’s been quite long time since I last wrote, mainly because I had a lot on my plate and barely got enough time to even breathe. But nonetheless, I have some spare time now and I thought why not put a check on what’s been going on in my life from the last week.

Well, as you all may know, the things related with pandemic COVID-19 which was major worldwide, In my school, as i am a teacher there, even they decided to give us rest and advice everyone to self-distance themselves from people, to avoid spreading out the infection of new virus attack.

Now I have around four days of self-lock down and was low key happy that I don’t have to wake up early and go to the school. Not that I don’t like students, staffs and all but I just hate the fact that I had to wake up early and leave the comfort of my bed, that’s all, LOL ๐Ÿ˜

Aside from that, I also had a bunch of things in my mind which I need to finish soon as I do have plenty of time to work on it, considering I’m at home right now.

But coming to the point as i am still ill and struggling to breathe just because of cold and cough, this virus and a pandemic still worries me.

Everything was beautiful last week I came back from my hometown and getting busy in school stuff but suddenly as this is the session end for the students, the work load is enough and I also having a tiredness of festival and period cramps, so i fell ill badly.

As on fourteenth of march I feel my throat is block and I can’t talk properly and in the amid of this I hear about the entrance of COVID-19 in our country INDIA.

Sadly many of the Indian travellers came back carries a virus in their body which literally they are not sure about and spread like to their locals, and the situation here in the areas and cities is now levelling up and the fear is real ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

 

As I am not having any kind of travel history from foreign or not even a single person I met who come from foreign but still the stiffness in body, throat pain and symptoms are same in my body and as a sensible citizen of india, I take precautions and stay at home from sixteenth of march till now.

 

Here I am writing on this topic is not that it is in trend or somewhat like that but being a literate citizen I want to tell everyone of you that in this case of emergency and negatives, Kindly support the government initiatives and don’t repeat the same mistakes as what the other developed countries done. They have so many facilities and things out there as compare to our country but still they fail.

And sadly this going to become big and I am tensed.

 

To all the citizens and countrymen of India and Others, Kindly don’t take this in a funny way or don’t try to become a superman.

Just try to understand the importance of this time, Show unity, Stay at home, Do whatever you want but please stay at home or don’t spread the negatives and if sadly you are infected then without hesitation and anything – Go to the hospital and isolate yourself , not just only for you but for the sake of your loved ones.

I’m keeping myself in an isolate zone right now, this is my day six and I take my precautions and helping the world to fight against Novel Corona (COVID -19)

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Important message to all the :-

Doctors,
Nurses,
Paramedics,
Police officers,
Bankers,
Home Care workers,
Pharmacy and other medical workers,
Grocery store personnel,
Delivery people,
Transit workers,
Airline workers,
& anyone who works with the public and bound to serve at any cost and cannot stay home โ˜‘

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Kindly support them by staying at home till the condition is in control.

I just Thank you A million times for saving us.

  • Wish you all take your safety measures properly and make our country the virus free.

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Note :

* Sanitized your body, hands and everything.

* Stay away from crowded place if it is not important.

* Don’t spread the false news.

* If you feel that you’re infected somehow then don’t sit idle, please go and visit the doctors.

God bless us all.

 

Some stories just need an ear … ๐Ÿ‘‚

๐Ÿ‘ช Family

It is not just an arrangement of six word but for me it’s a world or universe where my zero starts and end at infinity.

My love for my family is something beyond everything,

but as soon as I realise that I can’t do enough to make them happy till date,

I die daily …

A fiction Or A non-fiction,

A superstitious Or A fantasy

A struggle Or A depression …

I don’t know where you reader placed this story but it need to be listen…

Hii ,

As I am not belong from a rich family so from the young stage of my life I never demand that much from my mother.

Even as compare to my siblings, my demands to my mother is very less but the ultimate truth is that as I am the first child so my mother pampered me more and also spending on me is always more than to my siblings, haha!!!

I didn’t remember the days of my schooling and graduation as much as I remember the days after my graduation, as these are the days who define or tell me my true strength to myself.

I remember all the struggle my mother did and do to make me stand up in that position where no matter what but I have enough courage to earn some money with dignity instead of beg it from others.

My mother struggle told me to become strong even more stronger at the time when I achieve nothing big till date and fight until I will not achieve my goal.

But above all I have some soft corner or I can say that I am not strong enough like her, because my mother is my weakness.

When anything comes to my mother,

I feel like I have done nothing to make her satisfied, I feel bad, I feel like…

Completely disheartened.

She never said or force me to do anything which she likes but I clearly sees the pain in her eyes for her children, It is immense.

I know she loves her children equally and we too, but we can’t do enough for her and at the age of thirties I feel this pain killing me inside daily.

A woman who didn’t get a love from his better half completely,

A woman who see that their children are struggling daily,

A woman who is fed up with her sickness,

A woman who still fighting and giving all her efforts to their family to make them happy, and still get nothing in reward ?

Doesn’t it hit you hard ?!

It hits me hard, yes more than anything when I sit alone in my couch and thinking about my mother and looking at my father who didn’t care at all about in what situation is my mother In, I feel bad even I feel worse and more than my own happiness I pray for my mother and I pray to ( I don’t know whom because for me now the god is nothing) the almighty to at least get my father senses back, So he think that instead of their friends , work and all, His family is also here, I don’t want him to be just only here as a source of money but I need him to become more soulfully present with us ( Don’t assume that I didn’t love him, I love him a lot but for my mother I feel bad. ) I want everything to be change because the time is come, and its too long to hold a same old burden, I am not depressed I am hurt.

I cry … Because I am bad at telling my worries to my closed ones, I just want to make everyone happy and be that happy reason in their lives.

Till date I never express my love to my mother because no one ever or never going to know how emotional I am to confess love to my loved ones, except you readers, you are lucky to know everything about me, haha!!!

*And in case if you get a chance then please tell this to my loved ones, that they are my ๐ŸŒŽ

There are so many things I kept inside.

My fight is now from the one whoever up to the sky,

I look above,

I shout daily inside my mind.

That why this only happen to my mother.

As I have everyone beside me and I am lucky enough to have them but sometimes I literally need the one who without saying or expressing just look into my eyes and understand my pain and give me shoulder to lie and let me cry.

Sometimes I want to end my life but then I look back to all the people whose veins and blood are interlink with mine, then I stop for a while …

Because they are my everything.

I am torn into pieces, but then I look and think about my mother sacrifices she grew us only to win against all odds.

I am a fighter like her,

I wouldn’t born to be constant and stable , I am variable and my hope is bigger than everything.

Things will soon be fine tomorrow…

I write because there is nothing or no one be more faithful as like my writings to me …

I love to write when I am in pain.

I want a change in this world.

I want some stories to be heard not just because they only are stories , but they are the bitter truth which needs to be listen and I literally want that everyone of us will definitely makes our family proud.

Proud of all the moms out there who fight, survive and win over and every fight in daily life.

Your lovingly,

Daughter, The Warrior, TheWriter, The Struggle, The Introvert …

To be continued …

What about you? Whoโ€™s your favourite superhero ?! … ๐Ÿ’ญ

I am a superhero freak, I love each and every superhero like a crazy child who watching all these heroes at the age of 50s and still not getting bore,

But among all the great heroes of all the time, my favourite is – He ๐Ÿ‘‡

โ™ฅ I love Superman โ™ฅ

I see batman many times he is evergreen but I remember that when I was like 24 or 25 years old, I see “Henry Cavil” for the first time and I start liking and admiring him so much.

I saw him on HBO, telecasting “The Man of steel” , this movie and I’m like O damn he is so cool looking and awesome.

Not his physique but the character itself bang me hard! ๐Ÿ˜

I’m a big fan of that handsome guy, “Henry cavil” wearing the red and blue costume, I was wondering that what if I get a chance to meet him, though I know it will never gonna happen, but that character of him is always with me and I know it will be with me till the end.

Since that time “The Man of steel” I just love to read about Superman stories, happenings and all.

It feels like, Iโ€™m interested in it and

I fucking waiting for all kind of superman movies,

Those words of Superman “HOPE NEVER DIES” are the words I keep enchanting always, as I am a firm believer that one day your wishes comes true, So hold on.

These words and proverb of superman are truly close to my heart! ๐Ÿ’•

I remember one day my close friend (as he knows me very well) tell me about “Smallville” and my whole life changed & after watching a whole lot of seasons, ‘Superman’ is my all-time favourite hero besides Batman,Wonder Woman, Ironman, Joker, Harley Quinn, Green lantern, Spider man, Flash , Green arrow, Hulk, Black widow etc.

I must admit, the later (Smallville) is more satisfying than the first one ( The Man of steel ) based on what the descriptions writers always telling about him and what we always see in televisions and movies, but I still love the guy who wears the red and blue costume.

The guy who stands for all”

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“Smallville” gives my life balance though my life seems to be very tuff but it gives me Hope, that one day everyone going to love and accept you as you are!

Being a man with a superpower is not easy ~ Clark Kent.

He is not just a character he is my idol.

There is no comic book or movie or series with a superhero like you,
One who puts their life aside just for making this world a better place, yet people criticized you.

Clark kent gives me many lessons

He wakes like the rising sun and
ever hopeful for the new day and
aspires to be more than his circumstances predict.

He turns away from hatred and is open for judgement, he releases his fears and dares to dream of tomorrow.

He loves without expectations and gives without reservation, he is the definition of humanity an example of true sanity.

He rises above daily trials and trauma, he sees a future filled with richness in their abundance.

He knows the differences and responsibilities towards his family, his love and his friends and care for all the conditional & unconditional relationships.

He is not a superhero, he is simply strong of will and clearly prioritised his work, word and wisdom.

Honestly, if I will be given a chance to be a superhero, I wanted to become Superwoman (the female version, of course), I love helping other people anonymously.

I want others to recognize me as what I did good rather than what they can see, may it be a beautiful face of mine or not but people know me by my good deeds.

So mysterious yet the intentions of helping others are so real, I wanted to be like him.

Loving my own people immensely fight for them like always, helping and growing others people too, I want to be like Superman like always! ๐Ÿ’•

๐Ÿ“ฌ 2019 last post of the year ๐Ÿ“ฎ

โœจ๐Ÿ“ฉ๐ŸŽ† I wish the coming year will be full of joys and happiness and may you become your own hero and enlighten the world by your good deeds. ๐ŸŽ†๐Ÿ“ฉโœจ

TWO DAYS TO GO … โœŒ

๐Ÿฆ„ HAPPY NEW YEAR ๐Ÿฆ„

One bad decision & everything ruined … โœ๏ธ

Just about to sleep and suddenly the phone rang up,

It was not usual that someone calls me this much late at night, So my heart beating fast, as because my negativity seems to be at an extent level.

Well, I pick up the phone and the voice came, “Hey are you awake ?”…

Me : I was like – seriously?

Hey, I need to talk to you…

Me : Hii, Am I dreaming or it seriously my BFF on the other side, I am not getting the whole scenario right now.

Because it’s literally her first night.

Me : Hii, Late night what happens babes ? Everything Okay ?

“I say in a dull voice and her voice also very low, like I can’t hear properly”

Nothing bud it’s 12’O clock and I don’t know where Rehan is …

Again it made me shock and laugh at the same time because I’m not having any idea where her husband is…

So, as in reply, I said maybe he is outside’

& again in reply, she said – No he is not in the home.

Me : Do you call him?

Yes, and he said that I am coming in an hour.

Me : Don’t you ask where is he?

I ask, and he said to lock the door and sleep as he had another key to open the door.

Me : What the hell is this!

My blood is boiling and my sleep is fully gone.

“I told them I don’t want to marry but some promises and responsibilities are very important.”

Me : I feel the pain in her voice because I know how she agrees for marriage just for her parent’s sake, and respect.

I know how it feels when all you want is to make your parents happy and not want to disrespect them.

I too in a damn phase where I literally want my parents just to be stress-free from my side, but I failed many times and yes I am unlucky enough.

But every single day my prayers are only for my family happiness.

Ah, bad habit of mine;

I always poke my story in between others.

And its 7’0 clock, wow we talk, we sleep and we don’t know what happens at the rest of the night.

Let me call her now and ask whether Mr.Rehan come or not,

Umm phone is busy.

Maybe she is busy…

Let’s move on.

2 months later

Hey, it’s being a long time we met,

No calls, No messages, Is life being that busy after marriage?

… ( Silence)

Hey, miss, I am asking you ?

… ( Silence)

It’s Worst, more than busy (She reply)

Me : I look at her ,

She looks, I don’t know where.

Me : Are you okay?

No, I am not!

I pass the biscuit, hopefully she takes.

“I am in trouble” …

Me : Aah, No, Not again,

I remember that night scenario.

( I mumbling inside)

Me : Babe, what are you talking I don’t get it, will you please elaborate.

Now, I am tensed because I notice that the tears wouldn’t wait for that long in her eyes.

I take her hand and ask her to be calm.

“Rehan is not loving me.”

… ( Me : numb)

I am collecting words and just about to say…

But she starts sudden and I think that it’s important to flush out all her frustation or points first.

Me : Say everything to me starting from that night , babe ?!

He is not actually paying attention to me,

That day I sleep in between our talk but the whole night he didn’t come till the morning.

And at 10 a.m he came and sits beside me and I can’t keep my anger inside and ask where are you whole night?

And in a very calm way , he said – Sorry it’s my mistake and I literally mean it.

Me : Wtf …

And after listening to this, my so-called emotional heart says it’s okay, but where you have been?!

And he says with friends.

I am looking in his eyes and says – like seriously friends?!

And he says sorry, I am coming on time but they gave me excess of drink and I am not in my senses.

I am numb at that time.

And as with hours, my angerness flew away and that night we do what we suppose to do on our first night.

Me : Sudden my irritation starts – then what’s the problem?

What’s the trouble?

Me : It’s okay babe, it’s not good, even acceptable but he says sorry and you both spend quality time after that.

Where is the problem babe?!

… ( Silence)

And so the frustration burst and tears rolling down…

Me : Hey, please stop.

Sorry, I am here, here to listen, please don’t cry babe, don’t.

“My life is ruined.”

(And my negativity attack again)…

Is he lie to her?!

Is he is with some other girl?!

(Omg, Omg.)

He is not in love with me.

I am only there to cook, to listen to all those harsh words of his family, Just to sweep the floor, to do every fucking things but still he loves someone else.

(This hurting, but this is also a harsh truth and reality of these days.

I don’t know why the commitments being so fake these days.)

Me : Babe, you know who the girl is ?!

No.

Me : Okay.

He always seems busy in calling his friends, many times he comes late at home or when mistakenly he comes on time then he goes to his friend who lived near our house.

Me : Dont you ask to his friend that what’s the matter ?!

With tears in her eyes , she said –

Yes, one day I went to his neighbourhood friend and ask why Rehan daily spent most of the time there, his friend says nothing.

& then I said that because of you my married life spoils, nothing left.

please stop calling him to your house.

And from that day Rehan did not talk properly or even eat, sleep and work properly.

I suffered a lot, week by week his distance and the same routine killing me, I can’t handle anymore & then I went to his friend house again and beg him to talk to Rehan and come home as well.

Everything is right from that day, but as usual like from starting.

He is not a normal guy, he is so into his friends.

I think it’s too late, I need to go.

Me : ( Numb) Yeah okay.

Thanks for listening.

Me : I am here for you till my last breath.

I know.

Me : Soon I can find a solution to this.

No, I already try every single thing and attract him and talk to his parents, but they all blame me and said I am the one who spoils his son’s life.

Well, It’s my parent’s decision and I have to obey it.

Me : Hmm, I understand, parents on priority.

Hmm, “He is gay” or I dont know what & I am pregnant. Maybe soon everything changes.

… ( Me : Numb)

Take care will meet soon.!

*-*-*

This incident break me,

One bad decision ruined my friend’s life fully.

Feeling touched, In pain but I can’t do anything.

Why every single time women only suffer, why men can’t understand or see the responsibilities a women carry till her last breath for him and for his family.

This hurts me!

But I frankly writes this and believe that again my this piece of writing saves one’s life in future.

P.S – Don’t give your daughter in a wrong hand or just in a hurry or anywhere without thinking because it is not about a single soul who deals with all negativity alone but the whole family suffers in future!

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Respect women.

Do care of your mate or dont marry to spoil one’s life.

“A woman is a goddess and I am proud to be the one.”

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