Just about to sleep and suddenly the phone rang up,
It was not usual that someone calls me this much late at night, So my heart beating fast, as because my negativity seems to be at an extent level.
Well, I pick up the phone and the voice came, “Hey are you awake ?”…
Me : I was like – seriously?
Hey, I need to talk to you…
Me : Hii, Am I dreaming or it seriously my BFF on the other side, I am not getting the whole scenario right now.
Because it’s literally her first night.
Me : Hii, Late night what happens babes ? Everything Okay ?
“I say in a dull voice and her voice also very low, like I can’t hear properly”
Nothing bud it’s 12’O clock and I don’t know where Rehan is …
Again it made me shock and laugh at the same time because I’m not having any idea where her husband is…
So, as in reply, I said maybe he is outside’
& again in reply, she said – No he is not in the home.
Me : Do you call him?
Yes, and he said that I am coming in an hour.
Me : Don’t you ask where is he?
I ask, and he said to lock the door and sleep as he had another key to open the door.
Me : What the hell is this!
My blood is boiling and my sleep is fully gone.
“I told them I don’t want to marry but some promises and responsibilities are very important.”
Me : I feel the pain in her voice because I know how she agrees for marriage just for her parent’s sake, and respect.
I know how it feels when all you want is to make your parents happy and not want to disrespect them.
I too in a damn phase where I literally want my parents just to be stress-free from my side, but I failed many times and yes I am unlucky enough.
But every single day my prayers are only for my family happiness.
Ah, bad habit of mine;
I always poke my story in between others.
And its 7’0 clock, wow we talk, we sleep and we don’t know what happens at the rest of the night.
Let me call her now and ask whether Mr.Rehan come or not,
Umm phone is busy.
Maybe she is busy…
Let’s move on.
2 months later …
Hey, it’s being a long time we met,
No calls, No messages, Is life being that busy after marriage?
… ( Silence)
Hey, miss, I am asking you ?
… ( Silence)
It’s Worst, more than busy (She reply)
Me : I look at her ,
She looks, I don’t know where.
Me : Are you okay?
No, I am not!
I pass the biscuit, hopefully she takes.
“I am in trouble” …
Me : Aah, No, Not again,
I remember that night scenario.
( I mumbling inside)
Me : Babe, what are you talking I don’t get it, will you please elaborate.
Now, I am tensed because I notice that the tears wouldn’t wait for that long in her eyes.
I take her hand and ask her to be calm.
“Rehan is not loving me.”
… ( Me : numb)
I am collecting words and just about to say…
But she starts sudden and I think that it’s important to flush out all her frustation or points first.
Me : Say everything to me starting from that night , babe ?!
He is not actually paying attention to me,
That day I sleep in between our talk but the whole night he didn’t come till the morning.
And at 10 a.m he came and sits beside me and I can’t keep my anger inside and ask where are you whole night?
And in a very calm way , he said – Sorry it’s my mistake and I literally mean it.
Me : Wtf …
And after listening to this, my so-called emotional heart says it’s okay, but where you have been?!
And he says with friends.
I am looking in his eyes and says – like seriously friends?!
And he says sorry, I am coming on time but they gave me excess of drink and I am not in my senses.
I am numb at that time.
And as with hours, my angerness flew away and that night we do what we suppose to do on our first night.
Me : Sudden my irritation starts – then what’s the problem?
What’s the trouble?
Me : It’s okay babe, it’s not good, even acceptable but he says sorry and you both spend quality time after that.
Where is the problem babe?!
… ( Silence)
And so the frustration burst and tears rolling down…
Me : Hey, please stop.
Sorry, I am here, here to listen, please don’t cry babe, don’t.
“My life is ruined.”
(And my negativity attack again)…
Is he lie to her?!
Is he is with some other girl?!
He is not in love with me.
I am only there to cook, to listen to all those harsh words of his family, Just to sweep the floor, to do every fucking things but still he loves someone else.
(This hurting, but this is also a harsh truth and reality of these days.
I don’t know why the commitments being so fake these days.)
Me : Babe, you know who the girl is ?!
Me : Okay.
He always seems busy in calling his friends, many times he comes late at home or when mistakenly he comes on time then he goes to his friend who lived near our house.
Me : Dont you ask to his friend that what’s the matter ?!
With tears in her eyes , she said –
Yes, one day I went to his neighbourhood friend and ask why Rehan daily spent most of the time there, his friend says nothing.
& then I said that because of you my married life spoils, nothing left.
please stop calling him to your house.
And from that day Rehan did not talk properly or even eat, sleep and work properly.
I suffered a lot, week by week his distance and the same routine killing me, I can’t handle anymore & then I went to his friend house again and beg him to talk to Rehan and come home as well.
Everything is right from that day, but as usual like from starting.
He is not a normal guy, he is so into his friends.
I think it’s too late, I need to go.
Me : ( Numb) Yeah okay.
Thanks for listening.
Me : I am here for you till my last breath.
Me : Soon I can find a solution to this.
No, I already try every single thing and attract him and talk to his parents, but they all blame me and said I am the one who spoils his son’s life.
Well, It’s my parent’s decision and I have to obey it.
Me : Hmm, I understand, parents on priority.
Hmm, “He is gay” or I dont know what & I am pregnant. Maybe soon everything changes.
… ( Me : Numb)
Take care will meet soon.!
This incident break me,
One bad decision ruined my friend’s life fully.
Feeling touched, In pain but I can’t do anything.
Why every single time women only suffer, why men can’t understand or see the responsibilities a women carry till her last breath for him and for his family.
This hurts me!
But I frankly writes this and believe that again my this piece of writing saves one’s life in future.
P.S – Don’t give your daughter in a wrong hand or just in a hurry or anywhere without thinking because it is not about a single soul who deals with all negativity alone but the whole family suffers in future!
Do care of your mate or dont marry to spoil one’s life.
“A woman is a goddess and I am proud to be the one.”